mynight :x

hey -----------, nice to meet you, nice to know you, and nice to be your close friend ;) . hihi
I do not know how long this will last, but you must know that every time that I spent with you, it makes me happy. You now are my feelings;). You easily make me laugh, though not infrequently also you made me worried and upset. I want to state we are now able to last long, but I do not know, because there is little doubt, and it was caused by my own fault. sorry yaa. approximately for 4 months I was really happy with you. and you know, last night I was very happy when you could tell back from the first we know until now. hey, saya sayang kamu. hahahha! now I'm hear the song "soksokan romantis" at that time you told me to listen to this song. hahaha\

http://mp3lyrics.org/drJ Everything you do : I love the way you smile When I look in your eyes I love the way you laugh When I try to be funny And how a tear rolls down your face When I say no one could ever take your place. And baby when you sleep I watch you breathing And baby when you dream I dream with you Cause everywhere you are is where I wanna be It's true everything you do Makes me know how much I love you. The way you touch my lips Right after every kiss And softly whisper That I'm your everything The way you pray [ Find more Lyrics on Our love won't die Every night just before you Close your eyes. And baby when you sleep I watch you breathing Baby when you dream I dream with you Cause everywhere you are is where I wanna be It's true everything you do Makes me know how much I love you. And I believe some things are meant to be As sure as there is love yours is meant for me. Baby when you sleep I watch you breathing Baby when you dream I dream with you Cause everywhere you are is where I wanna be It's true everything you do Makes me know how much I love you.(2x)

xxx :)

Hey gnite :)
There's what I delete from the record on this blog ya? Haha yesterday, to be honest I'm emotional, I feel the fire! :)) I can't accept some moment on that day, you know what? On that day, I heard some news about him, and its make me shock!! I feel happy that suddenly feel sad, resentful, annoyed, angry. I feel cheated, I feel fooled. I do not think he'll be like that. Huaaaa I was feeling really sick, I was disappointed! long I do not feel like it, do not fall in love and also not disappointed. ‪perhaps in this case also I'm wrong, but I do not know what to do?!‬
several months I happy to be close to him, all this he reasoned, about his attitude, his attention to him, his words to him, it all makes me comfortable. ‪ and I could feel do not want to miss it! ‪every time he's near, I never want to time it ends, although I am sleepy but I always forced myself to stay awake to be with him.
‪after what happened yesterday, I was angry, I can not cover up feelings of upset me, I am just a bit respon to him. ‪I feel if he changed. :(
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‪I want it all clear, I do not want any more curious, I want to know what's wrong with him, I do not want to take away the feeling uncertain, I do not want what ever I feel when with "R" should I feel again with the xxx. ‪‪
‪I finally try to reduce my ego, I tried to speak with him, and turned out at the same time he was asked what I asked, he also felt I had changed.
I am a bit relieved, because it has discussed this with him. but I do not know how long this is going, I love him, but from now I have to get used to without him again! ‪I do not know what later would be like, but I wish I could feel he was also pleased.

ini aku bersama hati aku :)

Kita yang dulu berseragam merah putih,
bersama dlm cerita masalalu,
tersenyum kecil diatas perasaan yang sepenuhnya ada malu :">
Kita yang dulu berseragam merah putih,
Mudah mengungkap, berbicara, dan mengarahkan senyum tanpa peduli perasaan itu namanya apa.
Kita yang dulu berseragam merah putih,
bisa trtawa, seneng, dan melewati hari bersama itu tanpa menuntut sikap satu sama lain.
Kita yang dulu berseragam merah putih,
Bisa tenang menyikapi perpisahan tanpa ada kekhawatiran apa bsok masih ada pertemuan atau tidak.
Semuannya berlalu cepat, malah begitu cepat.
Dengan keberadaan yang kita miliki masing2, aku bersama hidup aku, begitupun kamu bersama dengan yang kamu punya.
Aku bersama perasaan aku, aku bersama perkiraan aku, aku bersama harapan aku, dan seluruhnya itu ada tentang kamu.
Tentang kamu yang dulu aku tau.
Pikiran aku membangun sosok kamu yang sesuai dengan mau aku.
Tapi kenyataannya aku terlalu terlelap dalam mimpi, hingga tuhan beritahu aku inilah kamu adanya,
Kamu yang seperti ini, dengan hati dan sikap yang jauh dari apa yang aku mau.
Di 2009 itu kamu untuk perasaan aku, kamu pernah menjadi alasan saat aku kecewa dan seneng, kamu juga alasan saat aku tersenyum atau nangis,
Yaa.. Smwanya itu mulai dan lewat ditahun itu.
Dan kini, bukan sayang juga bukan benci, ini hati aku kosong dalam perasaan aku untuk kamu.
Semuanya terlalu lama
Aku yang selalu coba untuk pahami keadaan ternyata tak menyanggupi bertahan lagi lebih lama.
dan sekarang aku tau, ini bukan karena terlalu dalamnya perasaan aku untuk kamu.
Tapi cerita dulu kita yang terpotong oleh jarak, membuat aku merasa smwanya belum berakhir dan aku ingin tau seandainya kita ada akan seperti apa smwanya. Hanya itu.
Karena kenyataannya selama bertahun2 jauh dari kamu, aku juga rasakan ada yang lain diperasaan aku.
Aku hanya terlalu terikat oleh pikiran tentang kamu dan cerita kita dulu.
Aku tau, tentang aku dan kamu tak akan pernah berakhir,
Perbedaannya hanya terletak diwaktu, tempat dan perasaan,
Dulu kita dekat berada dilingkungan yang sama, bersama dengan perasaan adanya seperti "itu"
Sekarang kita saling tahu, dengan jarak jauh dan jelas dengan perasaan yang telah berbeda. :)