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hey, blog.. dari tadi gw pelototin lu terus, sebenernya pengen cerita banyak tapi males tik males mikir bwt ngeluarin kata2, bsa ga lu liat mata gw trus lu tik sendiri apa perasaan gw?? (hahaha konyol)

abisnya gw BT, gw ga suka klo org2 udah mulai kya gni, bkan urusan gw sih, tpi slalu aja mrka ngehubung2in k gw, gmna ga BT coba?? zzz

di judge seenaknya, sok tw tuh org kya yg tw gw aja. omongannya ga akan pernah gw lupain (ga maksud dendam sama sekali tpi omongannya emang bkin telinga gw panas)

ada yg bkin gw males jga disekolah, bkan gara2 pelajaran atau guru, tapi soal #### yg ga mungkin gw bahas disini, ntar ketauan lagi. hahaha, bkin sebel tw, tpi gw ga pnah ngeluh soal itu. hem.. gmna ya?? gw ga nyaman aja, susah sih bwt ngejelasinnya, tpi kenyataannya yg gw rasain kya gtu. ngerasa ga penting aja. hahaha gmna lgi, klo emang ini harusnya ga pke perasaan, toh tetep aja kena diperasaan gw.

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This is not the same as what I sebenernya want, but I just can not be affected by this situation.I have the same positive things that fill my thoughts on my self and what I want. yaaa focus!!remember remember, remember my goals really want me to accomplish. "God understands what I mean" I love my family, I ga would never willingly hurt anyone they "anyone". what I rasain in my feelings about them, my family. I know, but I do not understand and I can not do anything "god yes .. it is really like?"

BAHEULA.

I do not understand, why sometimes my mind is so strong for his mind. instead I've realized that I was too disappointed with him? but why every time he had me in mind, every time I sleep, I wake up every, every time I do a routine, until I'm going to bed he was still in mind I am. its not lebay but that's what I feel! make me feel everything felt heavy when he thought he ga be there for me. as my memory continues strong record his name, sometimes it hopefully.
hemm ... well, today I deliberately keep the things that always make me baited want to know him, I intentionally ga hp fill my pulse, because I like the curious to online fb and opened her profile. These days I also do not resist to turn on the computer so I am not online. I want to get used to not really want to know how her again. um .. now I do not know how he was, but still did not stop my mind kept saying "how are ya KR?" plus I like the chance to hear songs that he likes, plus I wrote so remember him. crazy ..... the more I kept trying to make him let go of my mind, it actually became more intense. I have to keep trying to get used to make can take everything for granted. I really care about him, there never hate real for him than me, every time I say I hate him, it's just my emotions on the circumstances that do not fit together my desire. but now I know that he was influential for some of my feelings affect either pain or pleasure, but my feelings disebagian others also there are many things that is very influential for my feelings for the situation.
now, I have to focus as other things, because it certainly influential to me. "ya allah .. please accompanied me on the walk in the things most important to this" Subhanallah ..
and make KR "please you lanjukan stories you shared your life".