hopeless = desember

shit !! i can't focus to do anything. hhu. now, my feeling not composed, i hate this. everything against with my feeling. you always be there in my think. hey, do you wish anything else?? you come to me when i dont want you, but when i waiting for you, you not come for me. you don't know how about my feeling. i hate you. you always be for them, but why not for me?? because you don't know me?? or because can't you remembered me?? :'(. i still waiting for you from last hey, for some years you know?. and now, when you come, you not be for me. please, for at least try to remember me or try to understand that why i be in your life. i just want to you know who i am. i hate you i hate you i hate you, but i can't to not respect everyword you say, everything you do, my curiosity about you is better huge. i dont know why! whatever word you say always give effect for my feeling. every your happiness, every your sadness, i can see the pain in your status on fb, and you know, every your aching, your breaking, my feel so tired, i always want to know about your condition, althought it make me hurt, i dont care about my feeling. crying over yo, its not the first for me.
can you aware?? everything is against with your promises to me. :'(( now, my feeling just want to far from you. maybe its difficult, but suppose i can do it.
you cant understand that i m trying to make a move just to stay in this condition with emptied my feeling. yaaaah wishing my feeling was gone. one day, you must know how deep my feeling for you, but when you aware, everything has changing also my heart which usual without you.
now, lets you go away n i want spend my life without you. everything about us i will regard as doodle. wishes happiness for you kr.